Taking My Me Back, Stage 1

  The other day I closed my Face Book account. I closed my Twitter, as well. I was really nervous as I went through the steps to doing it. I very nearly vomited, no joking. I was extremely fearful that I would be hated and vilified and generally ... well, I'm not sure precisely what. But it scared the hell out of me.
  But as I was going through the process and experiencing so much emotional trouble I realized why I was doing it. I originally thought that it was because I was overwhelmed, and that was true to a point. The real issue was it had a genuine hold on my life and my psyche. I honestly felt that if I didn't go to that site every single day and do all those social media-ish things that there would be huge repercussions! I honestly thought I would have resultant troubles of some substantial and lasting kind. And this mind set had been insidiously growing so slowly and so quietly that I hadn't even noticed.
  And that was my light-bulb moment!
  How many things had I stopped doing because I absolutely had to go online and tend to my social media accounts? What real personal relationships were suffering due to them, as well? The answer; lots. Almost all, in fact.
  Is that Face Book and Twitters fault?
  No.
  And yes.
  Nobody forced me to fire up the machine every morning and click on either site, both of which were on the favorites bar, and spend 4 hours there. None of their employees were here at any point holding a gun to my head. I let myself get sucked in to it nearly all by myself.
  This being said, Social media is like any other business. There is money for them in it. Thus  it is designed to be as irresistible as possible, while disguising itself as "fun" and "interactive" and "communicative". But then again let's remember, it's a business and move on.
  My responsibility is that I knew how addictive it could turn out to be and I didn't see it. No that's not quite true ... I ignored it. Maybe I just found it easier to turn on a piece of technology rather than...rather than...I'm not sure what. I literally do not remember.
  But I am going to find out!